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, said the sleeve to the heart. 

To the ruffled,  We never really know that we are being hopeful until we find ourselves distraught, crashed under the weight of our own expectations and wondering where we went wrong. The wonderful world of wonder is one we build around our beliefs and perceptions. Our vision, limited to seeing things as we are, constructs real abstractions everywhere we see. …

Maybe if we sang a little louder

The mistake in the messaging might be the idea that desire matters. That if you want something enough, then as follows, it is yours.  The cosmic giggle echoes – it is heard by only one.  The idea that maybe we can want our way into happiness. That we can attain ourselves into actualization. Of the god who watches, judges and…

An echochamber of hope

In October 1979 Nairobi University students demonstrated against Moi’s one year-old government which they accused of having barred opposition politicians from taking part in that year’s general election. They demanded the reinstatement of Ngugi wa Thiong’o as their professor of literature. Six university student leaders were expelled and the student representative body, the Nairobi University Students’ Organization (NUSO), proscribed as…

Holding brief

. Ideas persist.  They persist because they define something that may define something else that inevitably defines us.  They persist because we are only the little bits that we share with each other, Because we believe in each other, that we can tell this story and, if enough people believe in it then a part of us will live forever. …

Calibrating joy

Sometimes i wonder if they had considered the possibility that you had calculated the risk and decided that the pain from one fall while rocking your chair was worth it for the joy of leaning back, tittering on the edge of danger, testing your ability to trust yourself in small doses.  “Utaanguka.” In a play a poet talks about why…

We’ve come too far to take the bus back

Coming back from the void involves acclimatising to everything that continues to be real, despite all evidence pointing to the fact that it isn’t. It involves remembering, everyday, that there is a certain linearity of thought that has come to define the parameters within which thinking should happen. That this linearity is expected… demanded… from all by all. It is…

Just shine

“They be saying I’m a cool cat, Fuck that, tell them niggaz I’m a top dog.”  Rashad, RIP Young.  It might be that understanding yourself is difficult because you have never felt your absence. Unlike everyone else, you do not know what it feels like when you walk out of the room – or when you walk in. You have…

Meliority

Be the girl you loved. James Blake It is now. You are here – again. You recognise the middle of nowhere from your perilous journey, your nose now far behind you (life is cyclical any straight line leads to the beginning). We live looking for a comfortable way to die before realising that death itself may be the only comfort.…

The grounds

By the umpteenth time you bury a dream, the grounds would have become familiar to you. The caretaker will greet you with a compassionate nod, not you – you shouldn’t be here again. Then again – no one should. So rather than belabor the point, they will make you some tea, which you will be glad to have –kindness comes…

What they said

“you got to work on that follow through kid” – advices What they didn’t say is what there is in a command. What must means, not that there is a single action that is compulsory in the world. But perhaps, that some actions are unnecessary and counterproductive to  whatever you might be looking to achieve. This, of course, is something…