It became ‘take as little as possible from the other” and because the other before you had learned this lesson they overcompensated, giving you more than you deserved.
The product of two unhealthy situations is not a healthy situation.
Rather it is a balance of two violences. Steady ground so fragile that the touch of your feet can break it. So you learn to walk lightly. you learn to make it so that your footsteps are barely noticeable. Learn to erase every trace of your presence.
So it makes sense that being seen is new to you.
a dance, how did it go,
it takes, two to tango?
guilty feet have got no rhythm
I always walk staring at the ground,
face down face down
You put one foot gingerly forward.